Thanks everyone for your time and understanding
My head says let go but my heart says not yet,so its difficult.
i live in a built up area backing on to a park, (with foxes) which im told could attack a cat.. sally was mostly always in tho even though the other cats come and go, mostly rescue cases ive took in or strays i feed she was more homely.
i kind of let go a bit relax and think leave it to fate and then something weird happens, like,my boy joe finds a fur ball belonging to sally under his bed when ive hoovered through the house half a million times since she went!
or the other week (after a heart to heart with mum about it as shes concerned pining isnt doing me good), i said a prayer (not overly religious except when i want something..unfair i know!) and asked that if sally was in heaven then could i see in a dream, my nanan with her and then id no...as nanan passed a few years ago and i dream of her regularly, instead that night i had a dream where sally just wandered on to my garden at feedtime with the other cats, i had this over whelming love feeling as i picked her up and slung her over my left shoulder snuggling my face in to her warm fluffy fur, which is something we did quite a bit when she was home, in the dream she was purring like mad and i felt a happy and warm flood of feelings and then i woke up,id been sobbing in my sleep but i felt happy too, even tho i didnt get the dead or alive answer i was looking for i felt she was trying to tell me she was happy, its just the not knowing as youve said, it drives you up the wall.
im thinking of contacting a psychic person or something, i think i need closure, if thats possible, just wish that dream would come true.
i had a poss sighting other week,on some waste ground between housing estates. it wasnt her, was this massive more black fat boy! beautiful and very loving,couldnt have been stray! i asked him for a cuddle popping him over my shoulder sally style.... it was the best snuggle ever, thanks for that, stay safe puss ++