Thank you everyone. What has made all this even harder is that I got the news about Dillon exactly a week after my other cat got helped to The Bridge, and near enough the 2 year anniversary of saying goodbye to his brother Digby? I was, and still am, missing Tom Tom so much, but Dillon has always seemed invincible, getting through numerous surgeries for injuries, and even survived being shot. Looking at him now he is like one of those Tatty Teddy soft toys, all ruffled round the edges but huge soulful eyes. He has become extremely clingy which I am taking as a compliment to his trust for me to do the right thing, but it hurts like hell. I won't let him down x