Topic: Swampy: love of our lives (Read 22426 times)

bunglycat · « **Reply #68 on:** April 24, 2010, 22:11:04 PM »

swampmaxmum · « **Reply #67 on:** April 24, 2010, 21:39:48 PM »

It's just over 5 months now and it feels like yesterday. I went out on to the roof yesterday, for the first time since Swampy passed away. It was his special place, even when he was dying he wanted to go out there. Little blind-deaf boy in his harness used to try to climb out of the window to get out there and I had to hold him tight and guide him down on to his soft cushion. I couldn't bear it yesterday and I don't want to go out there again. It brought back all the times we sat there or I lay there next to him watching him sleep in the sun and singing to his tufty head.

I hope he and little Max are flying free and can see the candles I light for them and know how they live on in my heart. I sing Swampy's songs to him still but I realised he never actually heard them when he was alive as he was deaf so I sang them to the top of his head.
I'm so so glad that I got a recording of his special purr on one of the last times that he really did purr.

Bazsmum · « **Reply #66 on:** January 30, 2010, 00:07:49 AM »

Topping up the hugs in here, thinking of you all!

Michelle (furbabystar) · « **Reply #65 on:** January 29, 2010, 20:14:43 PM »

(((((((((( KATE and GILL ))))))))))

Giving you both a loving hug xxxx

Kay and Penny · « **Reply #64 on:** January 29, 2010, 16:17:54 PM »

losing both so close, after you had dedicated so much of your life to caring for them, must leave a huge hole in your heart and life, Kate

but Maxy and Swampy gave you so much in return, and I'm sure the misery and emptiness you feel now does not for a moment make the love and joy you shared with them not worth it

and I'm sure too that your capacity to love another will return

bunglycat · « **Reply #63 on:** January 29, 2010, 15:24:04 PM »

It is so hard when we lose one of our fur babies .
Its been 7 weeks today since i lost Bungly and although i have 4 still , i miss her so much

she was one of the most affectionate ones of them all -her and the boys .
Sophie is upstairs most of the time and FiFi always thinks you are going to groom her or clean her eyes and also keeps away in her bed most of the time too .
Bungly was always around me and slept on my pillow and on the sofa with me .
Hope one day you will be able to take in another needy fur baby .

Dawn F · « **Reply #62 on:** January 29, 2010, 15:19:52 PM »

I'm sorry you are finding it so hard Kate, do you think the time will come where you can open your heart to other cats?

swampmaxmum · « **Reply #61 on:** January 29, 2010, 15:17:34 PM »

not any easier but it's only 5 months for Max and 2 1/2 for Swampy. I have my commemoration each Friday and I sing them their songs. I light their candles every night and more on Fridays. I go out as much as possible as it's not a home any more. It's just somewhere to live.

Michelle (furbabystar) · « **Reply #60 on:** January 24, 2010, 15:41:42 PM »

Can't believe your vets have made an error of that amount

However, I would take them up on the offer of going there to go through the accounts Kate

Sendning you much love.....we never get over losing our babies but hopefully time will make it easier for us all xxxx

Gill (sneakiefeline) · « **Reply #59 on:** January 24, 2010, 14:38:24 PM »

Its a very hard time and its gonna take loads of time to deal with the losses but it does get easier , even if it doesnt go away completely

Bazsmum · « **Reply #58 on:** January 23, 2010, 23:24:30 PM »

Aw Kate, things will get easier in time I promise, but to lose such a big part of your life it will be hard to adjust!

swampmaxmum · « **Reply #57 on:** January 22, 2010, 16:30:58 PM »

My OH says he will deal with it. We'd not go back to that vet so I'm inclined to pay him the last bill (less the 'consultation fee' they charged, which is unbelievable, as well as the pts fees) and see what happens.
I can't do it and I can't fight him.

Today I got comfort from my commemoration of both of my boys at the usual time. I miss them so badly; I still can't adjust when I am out, I think I have to get back and then....no I don't.

Gill (sneakiefeline) · « **Reply #56 on:** January 18, 2010, 18:17:14 PM »

I agree you need chapter and verse in writing of absolutely everything but know its so hard cos I had the same problem with a Vet Niow bill for Kocka and just when you are trying to get through the grieving process, somethink like this happens and turns back the clock.

Bazsmum · « **Reply #55 on:** January 18, 2010, 17:54:08 PM »

I know its something that you wont want to do but maybe ask them for a bill run down by letter.....I think they are taking the

Im sure some memories will of came flooding back to you Kate....

bunglycat · « **Reply #54 on:** January 18, 2010, 17:21:50 PM »

Thats awful- what a horrible vet !
Hope you can get it sorted out - they need to give you every detail and payment that you and the insurance company have made to them !
Lots of these for you

Dawn F · « **Reply #53 on:** January 18, 2010, 16:54:39 PM »

Kate what a horrible shock about the bill, the last thing you need

swampmaxmum · « **Reply #52 on:** January 18, 2010, 16:52:07 PM »

We are just back from 2 weeks in France. We stayed (by chance) in the same building as we lived in with the boys before, just one floor up. I thought that would finish me off but it was ok, but what wasn't was we went to a neighbouring flat which was for sale to have a look and I looked over at the balcony that Swampy and Max used to sunbathe on every sunny morning and that just started me crying. And then night time was so difficult; I miss them so terribly.

When I got back the vets had left a message saying they didn't do their accounts properly and we still owe them over £1000 in unpaid bills for the year. OH is going to fight them (I always asked if we were up to date when I paid in instalments and they said yes - and I can't see how we paid them so much and can still owe so very much to them, as we paid 35% of the insurance claim and anything to do with Swampy's eyes and that's all). They want me to come down there and go through it which I can't do and won't do. I don't know what to do; it's just more bad news at such a bad time. I paid regularly and insurance claims were put in every 2 months so it's a shock. We don't have any more pets and I wouldn't go back there anyhow. I go past there often though so would run into them at some point.

Last week 13th was 2 months since Swampy passed and today is 5 months since Max passed. It doesn't get any easier and in some ways missing them just gets worse. I feel like I want to move as there is no way I can ever go out on to the roof again. It was Swampy and my special sunbathing place. Maxy never liked it; he only liked canned sun, lying in the windowsill.

Bazsmum · « **Reply #51 on:** December 29, 2009, 22:37:02 PM »

Okay at home Kate, or do you mean should you take them with you? That is something that only you and OH can decide, whatever your need!

swampmaxmum · « **Reply #50 on:** December 29, 2009, 18:14:20 PM »

I'm not at all ready yet. It doesn't feel right, in fact it feels terrible. Right now I am babysitting a neighbour's canary and he is sweet but I find it upsetting having to think about a 'dependent one' at home when I am out. I think it will be a long time before I can even think of another cat. Swampy and Max were so much more to me than cats. Their loss was like losing a child or a best friend, the deepest love there is anyhow.

I am going away on friday for 2 weeks and am stressing about whether their caskets will be ok as it's all I have left of them, I mean in terms of physical memory. I am going to be upset that I can't have my friday commemoration for the boys too. Stopping what I am doing and thinking of them is all right, but not the same.

Joyce, my love to you

momma · « **Reply #49 on:** December 27, 2009, 00:36:16 AM »

Kate

I understand how you feel. I lost my Dusty. I think will I have a place in my heart for another.

I lost momma and bubba 2 years ago.
I feel so lonely

Will light a candle for you

Joyce

Bazsmum · « **Reply #48 on:** December 26, 2009, 23:16:03 PM »

Let Swampy and Max guide you when you are ready......Your heart is open to many, so big it can hold a special place for all!

Mark · « **Reply #47 on:** December 25, 2009, 21:00:55 PM »

Kate - I know they had wonderful lives with you. I know you will do it when you are ready but I'm sure somewhere there are a pair of fluffballs waiting to be cared for by you

bunglycat · « **Reply #46 on:** December 25, 2009, 15:19:19 PM »

swampmaxmum · « **Reply #45 on:** December 25, 2009, 12:36:53 PM »

I'll look for the thread, thank you

It is very sad and difficult. I have lit their candles and we'll have a Xmas commemoration at the usual time this afternoon. Just after I lit their candles, the sun came out.

Swampy, I love you my choccy monster, have a happy Xmas with Max

Gill (sneakiefeline) · « **Reply #44 on:** December 24, 2009, 00:58:31 AM »

This must be a very hard Christmas for you but I am sure the boys are watching over you

We have special light a candle thread today on Purrs

Bazsmum · « **Reply #43 on:** December 24, 2009, 00:50:29 AM »

bunglycat · « **Reply #42 on:** December 23, 2009, 22:39:13 PM »

CarolM (Wendolene) · « **Reply #41 on:** December 23, 2009, 19:27:47 PM »

I do hope you can find some peace this Christmas Kate. I will be thinking of you and I believe there can be no doubt whatsoever that Swampy and Max knew and still know just how much they were loved.

sheryl · « **Reply #40 on:** December 23, 2009, 19:03:27 PM »

swampmaxmum · « **Reply #39 on:** December 23, 2009, 18:59:41 PM »

Little Swampy....we are going to go away to where you were so happy my sweet. This Xmas I miss you and Maxy more than ever. I've lit candles for you and I hope you can see them and know that you live on forever in my thoughts and that you still own my heart.

I love you Swampy and I love you Max. You were the best thing that ever happened to me and I hope that you knew and know how loved you were and still are. The flat just feels like somewhere to live. And we have bobbles on the Xmas tree and no-one is batting them down and breaking them..

CarolM (Wendolene) · « **Reply #38 on:** December 14, 2009, 22:06:17 PM »

Oh Kate - how i wish I could say or do something that would help you. All I can do is to tell you how much I feel for you. Have you thought about trying a pet bereavement service. I've never used one but it might help to be able to talk about how you are feeling

swampmaxmum · « **Reply #37 on:** December 14, 2009, 21:59:56 PM »

I wrote to thank Prof Gunn Moore of Edinburgh Univ for her help in saving Swampy's life back in January and I had a reply from her yesterday and such a nice card. He only had the extra 9 months because of her input so it meant a lot.

It made everything come home to me yet again though. It's not possible to miss Swampy as much as I do. Nothing feels real or of any importance.

Michelle (furbabystar) · « **Reply #36 on:** December 11, 2009, 20:54:34 PM »

((((((((((KATE))))))))))

Thinking of you xx

CarolM (Wendolene) · « **Reply #35 on:** December 11, 2009, 18:54:53 PM »

Kate I can only imagine how lost and empty you feel after all the time you spent nursing your beloved Swampy (and Max)

. Our house doesn't feel like home either since Korky went to the bridge and I didn't devote a fraction of the time to his care that you did to Swampy's. i think of you often - I do hope time will heal

bunglycat · « **Reply #34 on:** December 11, 2009, 17:26:57 PM »

Bazsmum · « **Reply #33 on:** December 11, 2009, 17:07:49 PM »

Thinking of you!

Janeyk · « **Reply #32 on:** December 11, 2009, 16:41:48 PM »

Kay and Penny · « **Reply #31 on:** December 11, 2009, 16:26:17 PM »

there isn't a Purrs member who doesn't know just what you mean, Kate

a house is not a home without a cat

swampmaxmum · « **Reply #30 on:** December 11, 2009, 16:09:23 PM »

1 month today since my beloved little Swampa passed away. It's just the worst time in the world and nothing is really of any comfort for very long. I miss him and little Max so terribly. The flat is so empty and quiet and doesn't feel like home any more.

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