RIP Crookie cat

[madpants]

Ah Annettemarie, i feel your pain
Sending you lots of comforting hugs

I lost my lovely Willow in January this year and i was devastated, but in time it does get easier and the pain eases.
Just try to focus on all the love you gave Crookie cat and remember that she is in a lovely warm, happy place now, playing with all the other cats at the bridge, including my Willow

Keep your chin up hun xxxxx

[annettemarie]

Thanks Helen...yes she was....

And Sam, it was a lovely day, but a birthday I'll never forget because of Crookie's rainbow.

I'm sat here blubbing just thinking of it, but in a happy way....

[Tiggy's Mum]

Helen...your Tiggy looked so much like Crookie cat....its amazing.

That's a lovely compliment as Crookie was a beautiful girl 

[Sam (Fussy_Furball)]

Ahhh how lovely that Crookie has visited you and sent you a rainbow on your birthday 

I hope you had a good day which I'm sure was all the more special for getting a gift from Crookie.

[annettemarie]

Helen...your Tiggy looked so much like Crookie cat....its amazing.

[Tiggy's Mum]

Glad she has sent you your message 

[Gill (sneakiefeline)]

Well done Crookie to get in touch so well 

[annettemarie]

It happened!  Since Crookie died I've been looking out for a rainbow or a sign shes OK, well yesterday was my 39th birthday, and driving home from my mum and dads, over Loch Ness was a rainbow.  Not a full arch but a line in the sky!  It was there, on my side of the sky...plain as day!  I was so excited I burst into tears.  Of all the days to see it it couldn't have happened at a better time.

When me and my hubby were talking in the week I heard I her too.  She miaowed behind me...now I have two other cats and all three of them have different maiows, and I'd know Crookie's anywhere.  I stopped in mid sentence, and told Matt, and he said he'd heard her earlier in the week too! 

I am sure now shes fine, and doing well on Rainbow Bridge, and I know that shes visiting us....

Annettemarie x

[annettemarie]

Its funny but everyday I seem to remember something else she used to do, like when I was sat on the sofa she used to groom me, and put her paws on my shoulder and lick my hair purring away!  Then there was a hole in the bathroom wall for ages (my hubby was doing some work and didn't fill it in) and she used to sit in the hall and stick her head through the hole to chase me up if I was too long on the loo!  Plus you only had to say hello to her and she purred away.. 

Its like a little gift every day to remember something I had forgotten about her ways and habits...its lovely. 

Annettemarie

[JackSpratt]

Well done for giving Crookie cat the home and love she deserved, and for giving her the release needed when it was time. That's always the hardest part when you love and care for any animal.

RIP Crookie.

Hugs to you, annettemarie.

[MrsR]

RIP Crookie

[annettemarie]

The start of a new week without Crookie, and the sun is shining.  She'd had have loved to be sat on the front step overlooking the glen so she could see what was going on and be sheltered from the wind.  Everytime I go past her little grave I say hello...and have to swallow the lump in my throat.

Today I heard the cat flap go, I went out to see who it was, but there was no one there...I got all excited thinking perhaps she'd sent me a sign...then my dog Pip stuck her head through the flap as if to say...let me in!

Ah, well.

Still missing Crookie dreadfully, and the tears still come, but don't like to keep on as friends and family only have a certain amount of sympathy.  My boss at work has none, but then she doesn't have animals, never has and never will, so she has no idea...and no sympathy at all.

Still can't face having another cat.  Although we have room in our home especially for a rescue cat...I can't face the pain of losing one again....I'm dreading it when my two cats Molly and P-cat go.

Annettemarie

[Christine (Blip)]

I am so sorry for your loss, Annettemarie.  Crookie sounds like a wonderful little cat.

[Sam (Fussy_Furball)]

Annettemarie I'm so sorry to hear Crookie has sadly gone to the bridge .. she sounds like one very special little soul who was lucky to have found you and obviously brought much love and happiness into your home.

RIP little lady ... much love and sorely missed by your human and furry family xxxx

[annettemarie]

Thanks for that...I hope so, this morning was really hard...no little furry face in the kitchen to greet me...I've been blubbing this morning already....hope it eases.  Luckily P-cat came in for a bit of a fuss, which he doesn't usually do this early. 

Annettemarie

[Maddiesmum]

RIP Crookie, you sound like a little sweetheart.

[Tiggy's Mum]

RIP Crookie, safe and sound at the Bridge until your Mum is ready to collect you 

I know it doesn't feel like it now but the pain does ease and one day you will be able to think of her and smile instead of feeling sad 

The Greatest Gift

I always knew this time would come,
From the very instant our eyes first met.
How I loved you then! How I love you now!
I made a promise then, and I will keep that promise now...
You will not suffer from a pain that will not heal;
You will not know the loss of a life remembered, now gone.

It is for me alone to make this decision,
The price for the bright joy and pure laughter
You brought me during the time we shared.
I am the only one who can decide when it is time.
When my hope dies, and my fear rides high,
Just when I need you most, I must let you go.

It is for you alone to tell me when you are ready
For without your guidance, I will not know
When to lay my grief, my guilt, my anger
My sorrow and my selfish heart aside
And give you this last gift, this greatest gift.
Your eyes will speak to mine, and I will know.

The pain of this moment is excruciating.
Tears stream down my face in a river of sorrow.
And my heart drowns in a pool of grief.
For you have spoken and I have listened,
And unlike other decisions I have made
This one brings no relief...no comfort...no peace.

For if there´s one thing you´ve taught me,
If there´s only one thing I´ve learned...
Unconditional love has a condition after all,
I must be willing to let you go, when you speak to me
I must be willing to help you go, if you cannot go alone.
And I must accept my pain so you can be free of yours.

Go easily now, go quickly now,
Do not linger here, it is time for you to leave.
Go find your strength, go find your youth.
Go find the ones who've gone before you.
You are free to leave me now, free to let your spirit soar
Rest easy now, your pain will soon be gone.

I pray I will find comfort in my memories...
In the dark and lonely days ahead.
I cannot say I will not miss you, I cannot say I will not cry.
For only my tears can heal my broken heart.
But, I promise you this; as long as I live,
You will live, alive in my mind, forever in my heart.

So I give you this last gift, all I have left to give,
And this will be my greatest gift...sending you away.
It is the measure of my unconditional love...
For only the greatest love can say,
"Good-bye, go find the bridge, we'll meet again,
Loving you has been the greatest gift of all."

Forever and Always... Until Rainbow bridge....

[Gill (sneakiefeline)]

RIP Crookie, you sound so lovely and will make loads of new friends on the Bridge

[annettemarie]

Crookie cat was sadly put to sleep today and its broken my heart.

Crookie never really had a home, just wandered from house to house until she turned up on our doorstep on Christmas and we fell in love immediately.  She was so small, and never really grew up.  She must have had a tangle with a car at some point as she really was quite crooked, and her tail hung at a funny angle, with no feeling in it, but it was quite healthy.  She had the kindest nature I have ever found in a cat, and shared her home willingly with another two waifs and strays we bought in, and two puppies.  She was so talkative, and would love to give "kisses" when asked, which meant bump noses.  But in these last few weeks of her illness she has not been talking...or kissing...or doing much of anything.  It was time to let her go peacefully, and ease her pain.

I miss her so much already, there will never be another Crookie.  She was one in a million.

Lots of snuggles and love.