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In Loving Memory Cats => Rainbow Bridge - In Loving Memory => Topic started by: Nicola (RockysMum) on November 01, 2013, 09:54:32 AM
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Last night I had to have my beloved boy Jake put to sleep.
I’m absolutely devastated, can’t stop crying, but it was time. He just went to sleep in my arms.
He fought such a brave battle in the last 6 months, between hyperthyroidism, chronic renal failure and even bouncing back from having a cancer tumour removed. But despite all that he had a wonderful summer prowling the garden in the sunshine.
In the end, we just couldn’t keep the kidney failure at bay any longer. He was healthy and happy until he suddenly crashed last week, but he came home after 2 days on a drip and spent the week purring, stealing my pillow at night, eating all his favourite foods and getting constant love and attention. We did everything we could to try and keep him with us.
Sadly, yesterday he just stopped eating again and I could see by looking at him that he’d had enough.
No more meds, no more being cooped up indoors away from his favourite stomping ground, no more vet visits, no more renal food when all he wanted was prawns.
My brave wee soldier gone to the bridge.
He was my constant companion for 14 years and I can’t imagine my life without him. But the best thing I could do for my baby was to let him go.
The photo of him on my pillow was the day after he'd had a sarcoma removed from his spine in June. The other photo was taken just a few weeks ago and was his classic 'rub my tummy mummy' pose
Night Night Jake. My number 1 Baba forever.
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Oh treasure. I'm so sorry. I really feel for you, losing Jake like that. :hug: :hug: I know how much it hurts.
Safe journeying, Jake. :hug: :hug:
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So sorry,we're all thinking of you,and know how it feels.He looks a little love.x :hug:
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What a sweetheart he was.
I too know how it feels, and my heart goes out to you.
There is some comfort in the fact that enjoyed his last summer and that the time was right and that he was healthy and happy to almost the very last moments and the end was peaceful for him, held in your arms.
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There's no greater gift than release from suffering, and no harder one to give. :'(
Bless you for the courage to recognise his time had come, and the strength you found to guide him on his way. :hug: :hug:
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I am truly sorry you have lost Jake,Amber was the same fed up of being on medication going to the vets,blood test extra,but she loved her food her comforts on beds and sofas strolling in the garden,but we knew when she finally had enough last january after her seizure no more food no more nothing I want to go now and so we let her go :(
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So sorry for you loss :hug: :hug:
RIP Jake :( :(
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My boy has been gone almost a week. I’m missing him so much. I just feel miserable and lost. It’s so hard because when you lose a pet, people expect you just to pick yourself up and carry on. It’s only other animal lovers who get it.
I’m basically stumbling through my working days in a trance at the moment and it’s taking all my energy to avoid constant tears.
Jakes ashes will come back to me on Saturday. I know it’ll be heartbreaking but at the same time, I just want him home with me.
Jake loved being outdoors but he was the most cautious cat I’ve ever encountered. He had the same safe, sheltered route through neighbours gardens for 14 years and had his own little playground in an overgrown garden at the end of our street. He never went anywhere else and on sunny days when he didn’t come home for hours, we always knew we’d find him rolling about in the long grass there, or sleeping in a patch of sun. My OH has agreed to sneak in and scatter some of his ashes there.
Other than my lap, it was his favourite place in the world, so it seems like the right thing to do for him
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So understand how you're feeling right now. :hug: :hug:
It will feel better once you have Jake's ashes back home with you.
I often find myself in a quiet moment at work looking through the pictures on my phone of Paddy and Mac and Ross, and feeling each loss all over again, yet perversely bringing back so many fabulous memories of when they were alive and vibrant and touchable. :hug: :hug:
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So sorry I missed this, what a gorgeous boy :hug: :hug: :hug:
RIP Jake play hard on the Bridge with all our friends
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Jakes ashes came home to me on Saturday and I’ve been a bit emotional since. Feeling very flat. But this morning on my drive to work, the most gorgeous, huge rainbow appeared in the sky right in front of me. It was there for only about 30 seconds.
I’ve never been much of a believer, but I found myself saying “Thank you Jakey” and it made me smile.
Missing my beautiful boy so much
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He sent that just for you. :Luv: :hug: :hug:
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I am so very sorry for you loss. To know in your heart when the time us come is indeed the greatest and most selfless gift of all.
He asked that day with his eyes and you heard the whisper.
He was so loved and the bond so strong it was hard for you and him but now you know he is safe. The rainbow tells you this.
Play well at the bridge Jake and send a whisper to your mum now and then until that day when you meet again.
XX
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I'm glad you got your rainbow Nicola :hug: :hug:
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Am shedding tears for Jake and for your loss Nicola but glad you saw the rainbow :hug: :hug: It's an odd thing. I too have great difficulty in believing such things but still have a pic on mobile of the rainbow our Tom sent us when he left us :)
RIP beautiful little man :( :( :(
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Its great to get that Rainbow :hug: :hug: :hug:
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This morning as I was getting ready I had such a teary moment.
I looked down at the spot on the floor next to me where, every single morning, while I was drying my hair, Jake would sit there watching me, while doing his silent meow and pawing my leg for a pat. Then when he didn't get enough attention, stretching up and frantically paddling his paws against the mirrored wardrobe like he was playing with his own reflection.
Ended up having a wee cry on route to work :(
Miss you so much my Jakey Bo-bakey, my Baba-face.
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So hard :hug: :hug: :hug:
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:( So sorry for your loss Nicola :hug:
RIP Jake xx
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Just wanted to say thank you to all of you for your kind words.
Thank goodness for Purrs!
People who've never been lucky enough to have the love of a wonderful pet just don't get it, so it's comforting to have somewhere where EVERYONE gets it x
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My lovely OH put this together for me. Hope the link works:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=10x3rZC8X2Q&feature=youtube_gdata_player
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That was beautiful - so much love shared and so many wonderful memories :hug:
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Thank you. I can't watch it without crying just yet but it makes me smile too because he really captured Jakes personality. We took so many photo's & lots of video footage in the last 6 months. I think deep down I knew we were on borrowed time. I'm so glad we did though, because this video is just full of happy memories.
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This is so special, I cried all the way through because of the love so obvious between him and his slaves. :care:
Such a sweet boy :Luv2: reminds me so much of Uncle Beau, still with us at 15 with his work cut out to shape the youngsters coming in.
Peace be unto you, Jake. See you at the Bridge. :hug:
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Oh Nicola - what a beautiful tribute. :hug: :hug: Am sat here with tears streaming down my face.
Jake was such a handsome boy, and as Sheila says, yuo can see the love he has for you shining out of him in all of those clips and stills. The one of him lying on your bed is just gorgeous.
And the song - I love it. Such apt words. Who is it by?
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Thanks so much, although I'm sorry for making people cry! It's so nice to know other people can see what I see when I watch it. So much love. Jake was a feral kitten I got from a local rescue and he spent his first week hissing at me and hiding. He was very ill when I got him and everyone advised me against taking on a sick kitten. But look at what I got in return, 14 years of love. It just made him all the more special to me.
When I watch the video I find it so hard to believe he's gone. Some of the footage was taken just days before he went to the bridge and the footage where he has a scar was in June when he had a cancer tumour removed - 24 hours after that big op and he's leaping around my bed chasing his mouse. He was a real fighter.
And the song - I love it. Such apt words. Who is it by?
It's lovely isn't it? It's Just Breathe by Pearl Jam.
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A very beautiful and moving video and all his specialness comes through and his love for you and yours for him :hug: :hug: :hug:
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Had a bit of a wobbly weekend. My vet submitted Jakes final pet insurance claims on Friday and copied me into the e-mail. I couldn't help reading through the notes. Poor wee guy really had a rollercoaster of a year this year with his health. It was such a reminder of how quickly his kidneys gave up at the end. Reading my vets notes on how well he was doing, followed by him crashing just a week later was heartbreaking. It brought that last week back all too clearly.
We also put our christmas decorations up on Saturday & I really missed him getting in the middle of everything and causing chaos. Bailey just stays out of the way and hides in his igloo till we're done. But jake was always in the midst of it clambering in and out of boxes.
Missing him so much
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This past week, I've started to have very vivid dreams about Jake. I keep dreaming that he's come home. In one of them, I dreamt that my mum brought him home to me and said that he hadn't really died but she had been keeping him all this time to get him well again before giving him back to me.
He was so healthy, back to how he was before his illnesses made him skinny and weak. Amazing how real dreams feel. I had a good cry after that one!
It's been almost 3 months and I still miss him so, so much. Every day. I still can't watch his you tube tribute without losing it completely.
Love you & miss you my Jakey-bo-bakey
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:hug: :hug: I occasionally have dreams like that about Ross too (and bizarrely about my Father, who's been dead since I was 12 !)
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Can't believe it's been 4 months without you Jakey boy.
Saw a rainbow today & thought of you.
Watched your video tonight & we still miss you so much xx
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Friday was 1 year since my lovely boy went to the bridge. I avoided coming on here over the weekend as I knew it would make me even more emotional.
Can?t believe how quickly the time has gone.
A whole year without him and yet I still think about him every day
Love you Jakey boy, you are so very missed
So grateful that I have this video, it captures what a special and loving wee guy he was, maybe some day I'll be able to watch it without tears!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=10x3rZC8X2Q&feature=youtube_gdata_player
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Maybe, Nicola, but be gentle with yourself. :hug: A year is really no time at all when you're grieving, and you've lost a special someone. :hug: He'll know. He'll know just how very much you'remissing him.
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I understand not coming on due to being emotional.
All the best and never be worried about being emotional. It's a sign of love and caring and Jake will understand and be honoured.
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He was gorgeous, such a happy little fella :Luv2: :Luv2: :Luv2:
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Hard to believe it's 2 years today since I let you go my Jake.
Still not a day passes without you being in my thoughts.
My quiet little gentleman, so missed.
I like to imagine you, Rocky & Bailey reunited. My 3 boys together again.
Love you Jakey Bobakey x
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I am sure they are all together getting ready for the Bridge to open on the day before Christmas when the cats can meet their humans for a short time :hug: :hug: :hug:
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Nicola :hug: :hug: :hug:
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My 3rd Christmas without you, gentle Jake.
But this year all 3 of you are together.
Miss you chicken x
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It was 3 years on Halloween, but I couldn't come on because I knew it would leave me in bits.
Still miss you so my much. my quiet, Gentleman Jake
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