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In Loving Memory Cats => Rainbow Bridge - In Loving Memory => Topic started by: jogym on March 01, 2012, 14:15:06 PM
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Hi i'm new here today. I lost my dear Sam Monday after nearly 16 years. A few months back he stopped eating and lost a lot of weight. We took him to the vet who diagnosed kidney failure. At the time we decided to give him a chance and he was kept in and put on a drip etc. He also had gum disease and the loss of appetite stemmed from not being able to eat which he was getting steroids for but his loss of appetite and not eating recurred and this time it wasn't due to his mouth. After 3 days at the vet he came home albeit not a v happy chap and he was like skin and bones. The steroids though made him ravenous and he put on a bit of weight. Unfortunately this only lasted a month, but this was extra time with him cause we knew we would eventually lose him. He was unwell the whole weekend again losing weight rapidly, not eating, lying about sleeping and moving v slowly. We came to the decision to take him Monday. I have to say it was soooo hard saying goodbye - really hard. My husband went in with him and I stayed while he was being sedated but he was sick while sedated and this has upset me greatly - I can't get this image out of my head. I left the room while my husband held him in his arms and then when he passed I went back in.
I have sobbed my heart out. Tears coming every time I think of him. Can't even talk about it without filling up. Am devastated at losing him. Miss his wee eyes at the door when he wanted in. He was a gentle adorable wee man. Will never get over losing him. My other cat the same age has not been eating well since Monday. I believe she has been looking for him and wondering where he is and is a bit lost really - breaking my heart looking at her even though she hissed at him every time he passed her.
R.I.P Sam - may you be running free with all your new found friends. x
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So very sorry and sounds like your other cat is greiving too. Look after him and give him lots of attention :hug: :hug: :hug:
RIP Sam, you are loved so much
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Found this quote thought I would post:
What we have enjoyed we can never lose. All that we love deeply becomes a part of us.
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So very sorry for your loss You have such lovely memories and in time they will help :hug: :hug: to you and your other cat who will be needing you now more than ever
RIP Sam
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oh dear what pain you must all be in :(
Im mum to a PKD cat so all those symtoms sound sooo familiar to me. Hard as it is right now you have made the bravest desision you could ever make in letting him go peacefully at the end :hug:
Kidney diease is a cruel thing, i know the cycle of not been able to eat then being a bit better then back down hill again is so hard to cope with :-[
your other cat will be missing him for sure too bless her xx
so sorry for your loss hun :hug:
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Sorry you've found us under such sad circumstances, but welcome to Purrs.
So sorry for your loss, it's something most of us on here have been through so we understand how you're feeling. You will get over it, and though you'll never forget Sam, one day you will be able to think of him without feeling the pain. It takes as long as it takes, and until then, look after yourself and take comfort in knowing you gave him a wonderful home for so many years.
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Sorry to have to welcome you to Purrs at such a sad time :( :hug:
I can only echo what jezebel has said... It will take time, and although it feels impossible now, one day you will be able to look back and fondly remember your special boy and smile, rather than feeling the agony of losing him :hug: :hug: :hug:
The Greatest Gift
I always knew this time would come,
From the very instant our eyes first met.
How I loved you then! How I love you now!
I made a promise then, and I will keep that promise now...
You will not suffer from a pain that will not heal;
You will not know the loss of a life remembered, now gone.
It is for me alone to make this decision,
The price for the bright joy and pure laughter
You brought me during the time we shared.
I am the only one who can decide when it is time.
When my hope dies, and my fear rides high,
Just when I need you most, I must let you go.
It is for you alone to tell me when you are ready
For without your guidance, I will not know
When to lay my grief, my guilt, my anger
My sorrow and my selfish heart aside
And give you this last gift, this greatest gift.
Your eyes will speak to mine, and I will know.
The pain of this moment is excruciating.
Tears stream down my face in a river of sorrow.
And my heart drowns in a pool of grief.
For you have spoken and I have listened,
And unlike other decisions I have made
This one brings no relief...no comfort...no peace.
For if there´s one thing you´ve taught me,
If there´s only one thing I´ve learned...
Unconditional love has a condition after all,
I must be willing to let you go, when you speak to me
I must be willing to help you go, if you cannot go alone.
And I must accept my pain so you can be free of yours.
Go easily now, go quickly now,
Do not linger here, it is time for you to leave.
Go find your strength, go find your youth.
Go find the ones who've gone before you.
You are free to leave me now, free to let your spirit soar
Rest easy now, your pain will soon be gone.
I pray I will find comfort in my memories...
In the dark and lonely days ahead.
I cannot say I will not miss you, I cannot say I will not cry.
For only my tears can heal my broken heart.
But, I promise you this; as long as I live,
You will live, alive in my mind, forever in my heart.
So I give you this last gift, all I have left to give,
And this will be my greatest gift...sending you away.
It is the measure of my unconditional love...
For only the greatest love can say,
"Good-bye, go find the bridge, we'll meet again,
Loving you has been the greatest gift of all."
Forever and Always... Until Rainbow bridge....
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Jogym, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss :hug: :hug: :hug:
RIP Sam.
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Thanks for your replies. I think I might need a while to read the poem without crying but I will get there. :thanks:
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Hi and :welcome: to Purrs
Sorry to hear of your loss
:R: :I: :P: :S: :A: :M:
:candle: :RIP: :candle: :RIP:
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So sad for you. Poor wee Sam.
Life is a cruel master. We all must suffer a quotient of pain before we too are at peace. Your pain is that of losing wee Sam. His pain, though, is past.
Sam is now at peace, he lived a long and wonderful life and it is on this you should dwell, not those final moments. He would not have known what was happening, or felt any pain, so you should let these moments go with him.
You and your family still have some pain to bear in his absence. I wish you strength in these sad times.
RIP Sam, happy and free at the Bridge xx
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So sorry for your loss :hug: :hug:
God Bless Sam xx
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I am so sorry for your Loss
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Thanks Sheilarose and others those are kind words. I miss him terribly. I am thinking memories of him will fade with time and I don't want them to. This is our first pet we have lost. I feel sad for my other cat she seems lost he was with her from a kitten so she must know he is not here any more. She has been looking for him :(( but has been getting lots of attention. I know her time will come also to leave and it almost makes me feel I wouldn't get any more cats which is sad but the pain of losing them is awful. I never dreamt it would be like this:(((
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I am so sorry to hear about Sam :'( :'(
Big hugs to you all :hug: :hug:
Goodnight, God Bless Sam - play well at Rainbow Bridge xx
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I am thinking memories of him will fade with time and I don't want them to.
I don't think that will happen. I lost my last cat Jones over 11 years ago and I still think of him and talk about him and the things he did - nothing has faded.
What will fade is the pain you're feeling now.
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So sorry for you're loss , I lost 2 of mine in less than 3 months , it's so hard .
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I said when I lost my Oscar in 1998 , no more cats as I can't go through that again .
I ended up with 5 !
I have lost 3 in two years and got 5 again now .
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Missed more than words can say...
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He's a gorgeous boy. RIP Sam
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What a beauty!
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Remembering Sam today. It's been one year today since you left us and we talk about you often...'do you remember Sam when he used to give head butts, when I used to put my hand out above your head and you raised up to touch it making that funny little noise, when I used to scoop you up and cradle you like a baby and you just lay there as if to say ok you've had your moment can I go now...your sister Tipsy gets lonely when were not around and even though she wasn't all that welcoming she calls for you sometimes in the hall cupboard where you used to go...anyway wee man hope you're having lots of fun at the Bridge - luv us x
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All anniversarys are hard but think the first is the hardest :hug: :hug: :hug:
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Agree with Gill that the first anniversary seems to be the hardest as you're remembering the loss, eventually the anniversaries evoke happy memories of the years you shared together :hug:
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