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In Loving Memory Cats => Rainbow Bridge - In Loving Memory => Topic started by: DarrenR on February 20, 2012, 21:29:33 PM
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There was a small brown tabby cat that used to come along our backyard every night on some sort of patrol. This was high Summer, I don't remember the year, but probably 1993/94. After a while I went out to see her but she was too timid. We had never had a cat and were pet free since our dog was PTS in the 80's. I started to put food out in the backyard and she devoured it, obviously hungry. Gradually she became tamer and you can guess the rest as she wormed her way into our house and hearts.
She was a small cat and often went out for days on end, especially in the Summer. Three weeks was the record but she always came back. We never knew her history but she never had kittens so must have had some vets attention in the past. When we took her to the vets they thought she was two or three years old.
She seemed to be a healthy cat and never seemed to need attention at the vets and she was good company for my Dad after my Mam died and in the past Decade my Brother who lived in the house with her after my Dad remarried and moved. She was very affectionate and was part of the family. Even I moved away I still get back for 4 or 5 times a year and she never forgot me.
In the last 5 years she had thyroid problems but made a full recovery after having one removed. She went out less and less and became less mobile. She spent most of her time asleep on her bed with occasional forays for her favourite food in the kitchen. In the last few weeks she has been suffering from seizures and became so weak she could hardly walk. She had to be taken to her dish to eat her food and at times could hardly stand up.
I took her to the vets this morning. It didn't hit me until I was putting her into her carrier for the last time. As I sat in the waiting room I opened the carrier door and just stroked her, hoping to give her some comfort in what must have been a stressful experience for her.
I held her as the vet injected her and I let her down to lie on the table as she slipped away. I didn't want her to go like this. She deserved to go peacefully in her sleep but I couldn't let her suffer. I hope I did the right thing. She was about 20 years old and I'll miss her. I never thought it would be this hard.
Little Mowa. PTS 20/02/2012.
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So sorry to hear about little Mowa, she was a beautiful little girl who was much loved by many and had many wonderful happy years with you and your family, which she may not have had had you not found each other.
Sleep well and play hard at the bridge sweet girl
Sending you :hug: :hug:
Denise xxxx
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sorry to hear about beautiful little Mowa x
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Oh Darren what a lovely tribute to a gorgeous little girl. Mowa sounds like she had a wonderful happy life with your family and she will always be with you in your heart.
Please accept my sincere condolences for your loss.
RIP Mowa ... play hard at the bridge darling and know that you will be sorely missed by your family.
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Such a beautiful girl and obviously very much loved :hug: RIP Mowa, safe and sound at the Bridge by now xx
The Greatest Gift
I always knew this time would come,
From the very instant our eyes first met.
How I loved you then! How I love you now!
I made a promise then, and I will keep that promise now...
You will not suffer from a pain that will not heal;
You will not know the loss of a life remembered, now gone.
It is for me alone to make this decision,
The price for the bright joy and pure laughter
You brought me during the time we shared.
I am the only one who can decide when it is time.
When my hope dies, and my fear rides high,
Just when I need you most, I must let you go.
It is for you alone to tell me when you are ready
For without your guidance, I will not know
When to lay my grief, my guilt, my anger
My sorrow and my selfish heart aside
And give you this last gift, this greatest gift.
Your eyes will speak to mine, and I will know.
The pain of this moment is excruciating.
Tears stream down my face in a river of sorrow.
And my heart drowns in a pool of grief.
For you have spoken and I have listened,
And unlike other decisions I have made
This one brings no relief...no comfort...no peace.
For if there´s one thing you´ve taught me,
If there´s only one thing I´ve learned...
Unconditional love has a condition after all,
I must be willing to let you go, when you speak to me
I must be willing to help you go, if you cannot go alone.
And I must accept my pain so you can be free of yours.
Go easily now, go quickly now,
Do not linger here, it is time for you to leave.
Go find your strength, go find your youth.
Go find the ones who've gone before you.
You are free to leave me now, free to let your spirit soar
Rest easy now, your pain will soon be gone.
I pray I will find comfort in my memories...
In the dark and lonely days ahead.
I cannot say I will not miss you, I cannot say I will not cry.
For only my tears can heal my broken heart.
But, I promise you this; as long as I live,
You will live, alive in my mind, forever in my heart.
So I give you this last gift, all I have left to give,
And this will be my greatest gift...sending you away.
It is the measure of my unconditional love...
For only the greatest love can say,
"Good-bye, go find the bridge, we'll meet again,
Loving you has been the greatest gift of all."
Forever and Always... Until Rainbow bridge....
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I am so sorry. :hug: :hug:
RIP beautiful Mowa.x
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You and your family gave Mowa a wonderful life of love and caring and she lived a long and happy life right to the end :hug: :hug:
RIP Mowa you have left a pawprint in many hearts.
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RIP Little Mowa :(
:hug: :hug: Darren. You did the right thing for her at the end.
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So sorry for your loss, I know your pain too well, mine is still raw for my Lacie.
Play hard on the bridge Mowa, Lacie will be playing with you I hope. xxx :hug:
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What a lovely story, she obviously chose to be with you back in that summer and has had a lovely life with you and your family.
Of course you did the right thing, the problem is we spend all our time caring for and nurturing these little furballs so it just seems wrong to make the decision to end their lives, no matter how ill they are. But you were there for her at the end, and that's all we can ever do for them.
RIP Mowa.
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Thanks for your kind thoughts everyone. I took her unopened food sachets to a supermarket today to put in the rescue food bin.
Our family has never been big on taking photos but about the same time we 'adopted' Mowa (or was it the other way around?) I went through a phase of taking snaps. I went through them today and found one of her eating outside in the yard so it must have been when she first appeared. I had wrote on the back '14/08/1994'. So we had her almost 18 years....wow.
I didn't think losing her would be so bad. I'm really down at the moment and the house doesn't feel right. Miss you Mowa! :'(
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Thats a long time and no wonder you are missing her :hug: :hug: :hug:
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Darren - my heart goes out to you. She's a beautiful girl is Mowa, and a testimony to the love and care you and your family showed her over the years she shared her life with you all. She chose you. Means you're pretty special, doesn't it? :hug:
It is hard, but as time passes, you'll remember the good times more than the last hours. Hold fast to the memories, for they're precious, and they keep Mowa alive in your heart always. :hug: :hug:
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So sorry :hug:
What a beatiful girl she was :Luv:
RIP Mowa xx
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So sorry for your loss x such a pretty and girl and such a wonderful story of how she came to choose her family :hug:
You chose to end her suffering and that is the greatest final act of kindness we cant even offer our Human loved ones x If you had not you would have still felt turmoil wondering if you left her to suffer and the fact you recognised her pain shows you did what was right for her x
It takes quite a while and you often dont realise the impact our little furballs have and how, when the chips are down they are often the most reliable source of friendship. But you will eventually remember her with a smile and more than liikely a few tears along the way. You opened your hearts and home to a lovely little girl :hug: :hug:
Its coming up to my Boys first birthday since he passed and i'm more than a little teary of late - but i'd rather be without him than know he was here and in pain - he made the decision for me and I found him forever asleep and despite my broken heart if i had to i'd would make the choice for them too :'( Take Care x
Goodnight God Bless Mowa xx xx
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One year ago today. Still hurts but still a part of me my little cat.
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The first anniversary seems to be the hardest as you're remembering the loss, eventually the anniversaries evoke happy memories of the years you shared together :hug:
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Know how that feels :hug:. I still have my cats photo up and she will be gone seven years in June. However its unlikely at nearly 25 , she would still be here. Made room for another cat to come along and get comfy though. :hug: Getting Billy as a cheeky young kitten eased the loss a bit.
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Two years now. Still in my thoughts.
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Rainbow Bridge often makes me cry and Mowa's story is certainly no exception :'( I am so very sorry for your loss Darren. Truly I am :hug: :hug: :hug:
You most certainly did right by Mowa and she had a long life with much love shown her. That is pretty well the full deal as far as a cat, or any of us really, can hope for :)
We have been blessed with a number of cats over the years; some have lived to ripe old age like Mowa and some not so lucky :( Each loss has felt unbearable at the time altho it does ease with time. I therefore fully understand the continuing sense of loss and wonder if you have have ever offered a home to another cat?
It's the only thing that has ever helped to ease our pain in similar circumstances as the new cat is such a distraction and in time becomes a member of the family too :hug:
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I know how difficult it is to lose a pet, but remembering the good times makes it a little easier. I miss my beautiful Jack and shed a tear now and then for him, but I think he'd be happy with the little pride we have now.
Mowa was a beautiful girl indeed and obviously adored.
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You never will Darren..... I don't :hug: :hug: :hug: