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Cat Health & Behaviour => Health & Behaviour General => Topic started by: Philip on September 13, 2008, 18:48:29 PM
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As some of you may know. My 19 year old Tiffy has CRF.
He has had it for nearly 3 years and I thought I was going to lose him then.
But my vet taught me how to give subcutaneous fluids and I syringe fed him and he came back from the brink.
The last few days, he has hardly eaten anything and is just lying there in the "sphinx" position. He isn't interested in anything. I have bought so many different types of food over the last few days its piling up.
I had given him subcutaneous fluids and syringe fed him today, but something seems different.
I don't know why, but I feel his time is near. I have spent the day in floods of tears, but I'm not going to let him suffer.
If he isn't any better by Monday, I feel I should think about this seriously. He has been in my life since I was 17 and I'm 35 now. He has been there through so many highs and lows and I love him very much. This is so hard right now.
I know 3 years with CRF for a cat is a really good innings. It doesn't stop the pain though.
God bless you Tiffy sweet heart.
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I'm terribly sorry Philip. Nothing can prepare you for this moment. I hope that you manage to get some rest and some quiet, loving time with Tiffy this weekend. Whatever you decide next week, I'm sure that Tiffy knows how loved he is. Big hugs to you both. Words are so inadequate.
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I think you do know when it's time - even when you try and deny it to yourself.
Three years is exceptional for a cat with CRF. Tiffy must be a real fighter.
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Aw, I'm so sorry that you may need to face such a hard decision come Monday. Tiffy sounds like a wonderful cat who has had a marvelous loving life with you. To have a cat for that many years is amazing and I'm sure you feel like he's a part of you, which he is. Only you know when it will be time, as I'm sure Tiffy will let you know. Your last act of love to him is to help him cross over to Rainbow Bridge as pain free and easy as possible. Just know in your heart that this is truly the most unselfish act of love you can give.
God Bless Tiffy and you. :hug:
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I just wanted to say also that Tiffy looks like my Top Cat Haney's twin. Just beautiful! :blow kiss:
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Thinking of you both :hug:
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Oh sweetie :hug: we will all be here ok x
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Sorry Philip - Tiffy is a gorgeous cat. I'm sure you will do what's best for him :hug:
Does he have Fortekor and low phosphorus food as well?
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No advice but just wanted to let you know we are thinking about you both :hug:
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awww Philip :( I know exactly how you are feeling just now :hug:
There is nothing really I can say to take your pain away, Like Tiffy, My Hamish was always there for me through the good times and the bad.
But in the end, he was diagnosed with having CRF and at that time, I didn't know He'd only be with me for another ten day's
I was racked with guilt for not noticing the sign's earlier, even now,at times,I still am :'(
I know You have done your best for Tiffy, but if the will for Him to carry on is still there, he will show you. But if not, I know you will be left
with the Hardest decision of all :(
isn't anything else I can say, but I know your love for Tiffy will not let Him suffer in any way
My thoughts are with you :hug: :hug: :hug:
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I cant help but cry when I read everything you lovely people have wrote.
Tiffy has gone to the water bowl about three times this evening and drank....First time all day.....
Living with a cat with CRF is an emotional rollercoaster. When they crash you feel so low. Then all of a sudden they bounce back. Its been like this for 3 years. I haven't been able to take a holiday because I couldn't. I haven't been able to entrust his care to anyone...No matter how good or qualified they may have been. Its just I know him the best. I couldn't have coped if having been away something had happened.
When Monday comes I Will do whats right. I feel he will tell me in his own little way.
I will syringe feed him again tonight and tomorrow and give some more subcutaneous fluids and see how he goes.
I have never seen him this bad before. So depressed and withdrawn. It really breaks my heart.
With Jemilla his sister, I battled for longer than I should have as I had never been through this before. I hope this time I will act at the right time. As you have said. The greatest gift of love is to let them go when there is nothing more you can do.
This is breaking my heart. Its good to be amongst others who know this agony.
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Oh Philip :(
Sending you :hug: :hug:
I can't imagine how you must feeling :'(
You know that we are all here for you, Tiffy and all of your gorgeous babes :hug:
Sending lots of love and best wishes from me and my girls
xx
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No mark. He is on amlodipine. I also give famotidine when he feels sick.
He wont eat renal specific foods so I add phosphate binders.
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Oh Philip my heart goes out to you :hug:
I havent been in your position (yet) so can't fully imagine how you are feeling.
Thinking of You xx
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You and Tiffy are in my thoughts. :hug:
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:hug: and thoughts to you Philip and Tiffy.
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my thoughts are with you this morning Philip. I hope the sun is out where you live and that you and Tiffy can have a gentle time in the warm sun. sending lots of big hugs again.
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i hope Tiffy has a better day today Philip, but we all know you will do the right thing by him when he lets you know. 3 years with a CRF cat is really good, and you should be proud that you have given him such a long, happy life.
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Oh Philip hun I don't know what to say ... Can't offer any advice I'm afraid but just want you to know you and Tiffy are in my thoughts and prayers and Foxy, Zephyr and Rossi are all sending lots of healing vibes and kitty kisses to you both :cuddle: :ahh:
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A big :grouphug: from my fur-family at this sad time.
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Afraid I don't have anything useful to say but just wanted to say how :sorry: I am and send hugs to you both.
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Hi Philip, so sorry to hear about your cat. I went through something similar thing with my old cat Nigel last year, I just know how your feeling its absolutely heartbreaking :( as you say so many ups and downs. The hardest thing for me was actually making the decision but strangely enough once I had made the decision I felt strangely calm and I stayed with him at the vets and it was very peaceful. I am sure you will know when the time is right and you can reassure yourself he has a long and happy life.
Thinking of you during this difficult time and sending you lots of :hug:
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Thank you all.
Today he has gone and had a good drink at his water bowl.
Still wouldn't eat, but I have fed him.
He went and used the litter tray so he's getting about.
He is letting me fuss him.
I really don't know right now. The not eating has happened before, but he had uraemic ulcers on his gums. This time he hasn't.
Maybe he cant smell the food.
I have so much to, think about today. I ask whatever higher power there is up there to help me do whats right.
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Hi Philip, during Nigel's last days he wouldn't even hardly drink let alone eat and the final straw for me was when he fell in the pond I realised then I couldn't let him carry on any longer.. and thats when I made the phone call. There were many times prior to that he would stop eating and i would think this is it and then he would perk up again, its so difficult isn't it x
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Thats similar to Jemilla. I made the decision when I got back from work and she had been incontinent (both) and couldn't stand up anymore.
Tiffy isn't that bad as he is mobile, drinking and going to the litter tray, but if I wasn't feeding him myself, then I don't know.
I think I need to see how he is today and think again in the morning.
Its so hard isn't it. You have all the "what ifs" going through you're head. What if I make the decision and he would had rallied round. What if I left him to see what happens and he gets really bad and suffers. I don't feel in my heart he has told me yet. Its weird. Yesterday I felt he had told me and then I wasn't sure anymore. I totally knew Jemilla had told me.
When you love a pet so much. The most important thing I guess is not allowing you're emotions which are at breaking point cloud you're judgement. But its such a final decision. You cant go back. You cant change things.
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Aw, I am sorry to hear about Tiffy. Hope he's doing better today. My thoughts are with you. :hug:
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Sorry Phillip, :hug: Its so hard isnt it? I felt that my Suzie with CRF had rallied, the day I'd actually made the appointment for the vet to come and put her to sleep. Suzie had stopped eating so I'd been hand feeding her, but she was still drinking. Then she stopped drinking too, and I felt it was the time. But on that morning the vet was due, Suz suddenly got up, went outside and had a really good long drink - and it had me wracked with indecision, so much went through my mind - but I knew I couldnt just wait to see if she rallied, only to see her go down again, so she was pts that morning and I know I made the right decision.
My thoughts are with you, I know you'll do whats right for Tiffy :hug:
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I am so sorry to hear about Tiffy and understand exactly what you are going through and it breaks my heart :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:
I wish I could think up some nice words to make you feel better but know they dont exist.
Sending all my thoughts to you and Tiffy :hug: :hug:
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Thanks.
Went out for a cycle ride down the sea front to try and clear my head and think only to find a huge motorbike rally going on.
Have given Tiffy another 100ml subcutaneous fluids and some famotidine to help with sickness.
I think I need to know his blood urea nitrogen (BUN) levels. Also if he is becoming anaemic. His gums don't look pale. Maybe also his potassium levels are low.
He has been sick today. I think he has a high BUN level or uraemia and its making him feel sick and grotty. Usually subcutaneous fluids help by diluting the toxins and giving any remaining kidney function assistance in clearing these toxins. I had to treat all my clan with stronghold due to fleas and wonder if that has had any bad effect on him.
He still doesn't look any better. I'm all over the place right now. I wish I didn't have to work tomorrow.
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He has been sick again. He tried going to the toilet but couldn't go due to constipation.
I can't bear this anymore.
I'm going to make the appointment for tomorrow evening to send him to the bridge.
I have just phoned work and told them.
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:grouphug: ... I'm so sorry. I hope you and Tiffy can have a good evening together hun.
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i am sorry that he isn't seeming any better, your last post brought a tear to my eye. IT might still be worth doing bloods just so you know you have done everything and that it truly is the right time, it sounds like the constipation could be causing the not eating. You are both in my thoughts.
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My thoughts with you :hug:
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I thought about doing bloods, but I just think he is 19 now and has had CRF for 3 years and will it really be worth it.
I have given him subcutaneous fluids and syringe fed him for four days and he isnt any better. Maybe I might be lucky and stabilise him for a few more months but I have to be realistic.
All I know is right now he is suffering. He is hiding and lying there in the sphinx position just like Jemilla did and its killing me seeing him like this. He's weak and wobbly on his back legs now Its no life for him.
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Philip, my thoughts are with you :hug: and with Tiffy
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i am sure the vet will help you wtih your decision tomorrow, but both his age and the time he has lived with CRF are very good, and a testament to your love and care.
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I'm just sitting sobbing reading your thread. It's very hard to make such a decision but you need to do what's right for your baby.
I'll be thinking of you.
Lyndsey x
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Sorry to hear about Tiffy hun, we all know you will do whatever is best for him :hug: :hug:
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I think you know you have made the right decision for him :hug:
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So sorry Philip my thoughts are with you :hug:
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I'm going to ring my vet first thing and talk it over.
If she feels its worth examining Tiffy then I will take him in first thing.
If then she agrees with what I am feeling, then I will arrange to take him back at the end of surgery so it can be done in peace.
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I wish you and Tiffy strength, courage and lots of luck.
Take care
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Oh Philip I dont know what to say mate :hug:
Will be thinking of you tomorrow xxxxxxx
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I also wish you and Tiffy strength, courage and lots of luck during this time
Remember WE are ALL here if you need us
Thinking of You and Tiffy :hug: :hug: :hug:
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Just done a unrinalysis caught mid stream
Positive to:
leucocytes
protein
blood
specific gravity is 1020 so slightly below normal but at least this shows some kidney function.
Negative to:
Keytones
glucose
Guess I will have to see what the vet says tomorrow.
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Will be thinking of you and Tiffy today, hope things can be sorted and it doesn't come to the worst
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me too Philip. Thinking of you and Tiffy today :hug:
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Hope things go well at the vet, Philip. :hug:
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Vet appointment is at 17:30. I have made it at the end of surgery so if I have to let him go, It can be done without haste and in peace.
He seems a tiny bit brighter to me today which makes this even harder.
He had his bowels well opened this morning. He seems more interested in the world around him.
Just feeding him some hills AD to see if he will keep it down and some more subcutaneous fluids.
My Vet is going to check his BUN levels. If they are too high then I guess I have a really hard heartbreaking decision to make.
My poor baby. Im not going to let him suffer.
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Keeping my fingers crossed :hug:
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Hoping he can rally today :hug:
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Thinking of You -
This must be the hardest decision, knowing when it's the right time.
I know You will do what is best for Tiffy :hug:
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You guys have been on my mind all morning, thinking of you :hug:
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Thinking of you, Philip. :hug:
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Thank you.
He has kept the hills AD down so far.
Might not mean much though.
I'm at that point where I am so hypersensitive to anything. One minute I feel its not time. Then I'm thinking is he suffering.
Then I'm thinking, he might rally again. Then I don't know. Then I start crying because I look at him and realise that my time with him might be coming to an end.
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Oh sweetie I wish I could take your pain away :hug:
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Just taken these.
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Tiffy is gorgeous. He is simply beautiful. I am glad he has perked up a little and hope that the news from the vet's is better than you are anticipating. You must be feeling really anxious - I will be thinking of you both and look forward to a positive update :hug:
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Lovely pics of Tiffy Philip. Good luck at the vet x x
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Beautiful photos :Luv:
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Lovely photos hun :Luv: :hug:
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Less than 2 hours left.
I have cuddled Tiffy a couple of times. He purrs very quietly now.
I cant cuddle him for long as he just wants to get away.
This is so hard right now.
I don't want him picking up on how I feel, but the tears keep coming.
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Aw sweet Tiffy. Hang in there Phillip, I know this is hard. Tiffy is really beautiful. :hug:
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ahh Philip not sure what to say other than I feel for you right now. Going away for a week so wont be on line but will be thinking of you both whatever the outcome :hug:
Take care Andrea aka ginge66 x
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:hug: Philip, I really feel for you Hun. Take care xx
Extra big :hug: :hug: :hug: for the beautiful Tiffy xxx
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Thinking of you and Tiffy :hug:
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We are also thinking of you both :hug:
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Philip, I hope you're bearing up. Whatever has happened the emotional stress of these sort of situations is epic.
Hugs to you, hope the vet visit gave positive news for Tiffy.
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Thinking of you x
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Hi ,ive just picked up on this thread and my heart goes out to you and i really feel your pain :'( i lost one of my beloved cats 6 weeks ago :(, he told me it was time to let him go and altho it broke my heart i couldnt let him suffer, i was told by all on here to try and remember all the love and good times we had together, and altho it helped a bit it was still a very sad time,i will be thinking of you and Tiffy and send lots of :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: to you both god bless
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:hug: thinking of you
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Feeling really distressed I took Tiffy to the vets.
He didn't complain about being in the carrier which I knew was a bad sign.
I took him into the consulting room and discussed with my vet about whether or not it would be of any benefit checking his BUN levels etc.
She examined him and put him on the floor. I hadn't realised, but he had lost a lot of his sight.
He must have had a mental picture of my place in his brain which allowed him to navigate without me noticing.
She then told me that she felt he wasn't quite at the stage where it would be the humane thing to send him to the bridge, but it wasn't far away.
I felt then in my heart that I had to make the decision. I gave him a kiss and told her I felt he no longer had a quality of life that I felt was good enough to sustain him any longer. I signed the consent form and gave him lots of cuddles.
She gave the first injection and I held him telling him how much I loved him and how special he was to me. I told him to give his sister Jemilla a big hug from me. He gently fell asleep in my arms. I was sobbing uncontrollably at this point but I kept telling him what a special boy he was and that I loved him. I told him he would soon be a young cat again in his prime jumping around on the bridge.
Then I gently lay him down so she could give the second injection that sent him to the bridge. It was peaceful and he felt no pain. I promised him that I would give him a good grooming after at home and thats what I did. He hadn't let me groom him for a few days so I wanted him to look beautiful.
I feel I made the right decision for him. I'm hurting really bad right now, but thats part of the loving relationship you have with a cat. Part of the responsibility you have towards them when they need you the most.
God bless all of you for you're kindness, thoughts and prayers for Tiffy. I hoped that we might have some more time together, but it was his time. I was amazingly lucky to have 19 wonderful years with him. Something that I will always treasure in my heart.
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So sorry for your loss after 19 years its like loosing your child
I hope that you cuddle the others
Only ever borrowed never owned but always a pawprint in your heart
Again so sorry for your loss
Liz and the Clan Cats :hug:
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:RIP: Tiffy and play hard at the bridge, philip lots of :hug: :hug: im thinking of you and feeling your pain, but you did the right thing by Tiffy and he will be waiting for you at the bridge :hug:
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Oh hunnie I am here in tears so I cannot even start to know how you feel. :hug:
There are no words that I can say to help but you did the kindest thing and it took a lot of strength for you to do that. I have looked at my cats all evening and have thought of you and Tiffy and have sent you both our love and strength.
RIP Tiffy, have fun across the rainbow bridge sweet pea.
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I'm so sorry sweetheart :hug:
RIP Tiffy, sleep well baby :'(
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Oh Philip .... I know there is nothing I can say that will make you feel any better at the moment.
You know you gave Tiffy all the love and care that any cat could possibly ask for and I have no doubt he repaid you 10-fold.
You were both so lucky to have had each other and I can only begin to imagine how much you must be hurting.
Take care hun :hug:
RIP Tiffy ... Daddy's special friend through good times and bad. Much loved and sorely missed. Play hard at the bridge little man.
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RIP Tiffy, safe and sound at the Bridge until your Dad is ready to collect you :hug:
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I don't think words written here can express how sorry I am that you have had let your baby go.
Lyndsey x
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I took these in the last hour before I took him to the vets.
I feel you can see the sadness in him.
19 years is a long time. He was like a son to me.
I'm just glad he isn't suffering anymore.
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What a beautiful boy. Am so sorry to hear he has gone, but you did the kindest thing by letting him go, it's so hard.
He was a lucky cat to spend his 19 years with someone who cared so much :hug:
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In tears for you Philip :'( he was ready to go. :hug:
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I'm so sorry. Your story of how much you loved Tiffy has brought tears to my eyes. RIP Tiffy
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So sorry Philip. It must have been the most difficult decision you have ever made but the right one for Tiffy's sake. He was a gorgeous boy that deserved to be freed from pain :hug:
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God I'm in floods here,you did the right thing for Tiffy Philip and thats what most important,he is free from pain now and is looking over you and your other puddys,he will always live on in your heart :hug:
RIP little one :(
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So sorry Philip, you made the right decision for him and freed him from pain :hug: :hug: :hug:
:RIP: Tiffy, sweet dreams, xxxxxxxx
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Goodnight, God bless you Tiffy. You are a much loved fur baby and your daddy made the unselfish decision to free you from pain because he loves you so much. Smile down on him. So sorry Philip :hug:
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I'm So Sorry Philip and I feel your Pain, after having a furbabe for so long It really is hard to let go :(
But deep down I'm sure you know you have made the right decision and Tiffy is in a better place now
Thinking of you :hug: :hug: :hug:
:RIP: Tiffy, play hard at the Bridge
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i am so very sorry to hear this Phillip, I could see the sadness in the first pics you took yesterday. I think you did the right thing by letting him go even though the vet said he may have had more time, this way you ensured he went with dignity, and not the risk of him suffering. I am glad he went peacefully and with someone he loved, and who loved him, you gave him a wonderful life. RIP Tiffy
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those are the most lovely photos of Tiffy, Philip. He's so beautiful. You have loved each other for such a wonderfully long time. You made him know how special he was for so long and done all you can for him. Right now I am sure you are feeling beyond everything as the loss is all so painful so this is just to send you love and hugs as words can be of very little comfort. RIP little Tiffy, now in peace and play and not suffering any more. :hug:
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Oh Phillip i am so sorry.
I know that words cannot help ease your pain but we are all thinking of you and admire you for having the strength to make the decsion in Tiffys' best interests.
Thinking of you :hug: :hug: :hug:
Bless you Tiffy
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I feel numb right now.
I cant believe he is gone.
My special little boy.
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Im so sorry
RIP Tiffy Play well at the bridge baby
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love
Tab
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I am so sorry for your loss, Philip. You did what was best for Tiffy.
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Oh Philip I am so so sorry :hug:
Sharing Your pain with my own tears right now.
God bless Tiffy, Run free at the bridge now until Daddy comes to get You xxxxxxx
(I have just edited this as noticed i clicked the wrong smiley....and its not the first time...can a mod more the ROFL away from the HUG please ?)
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So very sorry to hear this - it will get easier as time progresses, you just need to take each day as it comes
Take care
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Thinking of you hun :hug:
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I am so terribly sorry and am thinking of you at this sad time :hug: :hug:
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So sorry to read this thread, Philip :hug: Like everyone else, I'm shedding a tear here. Knowing when to let them go has got to be the hardest decision we ever have to make and the fact that it was the right thing to do will be of no consolation to you right now. But he was lucky to have owned you and you were lucky to share you life with such a precious little boy. He was gorgeous right up until the end and will be having a ball at rainbow bridge now. RIP Tiffy and say hello to Magpie for me.
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I'm sorry for your loss :(
You did the most decent thing you could for him, just hold that in your heart!
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So sorry Philip - gorgeous Tiffy had a wonderful, happy, life filled with love - thinking of you.
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Work was really hard today. I'm a senior staff nurse and I was in charge today.
I just felt like running away.
I have arranged his cremation today. I cant do it to the 25th as I haven't got enough money till then. I'm gutted that his body has to stay at the vets till then. I wish I could do it sooner.
I still cant believe he's gone. 19 years. Thats over half my lifetime.
Tomorrow at my choir practice I'm going to sing my heart out in honour of him
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I can only imagine how difficult work must have been for you. It's not long until the 25th and Tiffy is in your heart forever, it's just his ashes coming home, his soul is within you. :hug:
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It's not long until the 25th and Tiffy is in your heart forever, it's just his ashes coming home, his soul is within you. :hug:
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Philip take it a day at a time, You are still in shock at the moment and that is why you feel numb , its the bodys way of protecting you from the pain (i dont need to tell you this as you are a nurse)
Sending You much love, Thinking of You xxx
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God you are all so lovely.
Its helping having 4 mad ragdolls around me.
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I made a short film of Tiffy about 4 years ago.
http://s61.photobucket.com/albums/h61/cheekee_munkee/?action=view¤t=Tiffyrunningdownstairs.flv
Its a nice way to remember him.
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Thank you for sharing the video of Tiffy, he certainly looks full of energy. It must be difficult for you to watch right now but I am sure, in time, it will bring you comfort to see how happy he obviously was. You know Philip Purrs is such a special place it's like belonging to a big warm family. Everyone here is so kind and supportive and I know they are all here for you in this time of need. take care of yourself and try to rejoice in the wonderful times you and Tiffy had together and in the fact that he knew love and contentment. :hug:
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I'll definitely second everything that Maddiesmum has said about how wonderful the support Purrs gives us all. I hope you are taking care of yourself too Philip. You were an amazing dad to your Tiffy and he'll always live on in your memory. I hope the people at work are understanding and caring too. :hug:
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My most sincere condolences to you, Philip. Tiffy was a handsome lad, and I'm sure he knew how much he was loved. My beloved Lucia was pts on 1 January and I still cry for her every day.
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I had a dream about him last night.
He looked happy.
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I had a dream about him last night.
He looked happy.
Maybe he is trying to tell you something sweetie so you don't ache so much :hug:
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I am glad he looked happy.
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Here he is in the last hour before his sister Jemilla went to the bridge.
Its so sweet how he stayed so close to her.
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I haven't been able to read all of this thread as I am in tears at work but I will read it all later when I am home. I just wanted to say how sorry I am Philip. Tiffy was a beautiful cat and he had a wonderful life with you. RIP Tiffy enjoy yourself at the bridge darling.
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I had a dream about him last night.
He looked happy.
Hey Philip
They say that when you dream of someone who has passed it is their way of visiting you
I think You just got your Bridge kiss !!
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He's such a little sweetheart
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Dear Tiffy.
When I was 16 I lost my dad. I planted a seed in the ground and cried tears of sadness. Those tears of sadness made the seed grow and you were born.
I have spent many happy years with you. Even though there have been many, it was still too short a time. It would have been however long we had together.
Now it was you're time to go. Like a flower in autumn, the flowers and leaves dropped and the cycle of life turned full circle.
I have tears of sadness again, but I understand you haven't left me. The cycle of life still goes on all around me. The fires in you're eyes lights up in mine.
Please wait for me. Because one day I will be with you again. It's not my time quite yet. I have still much to do and learn. I have to continue the work you and my other fur babes inspire me to do. I still have lots of love to give others. I know you will understand.
God bless you my special baby.
You're daddy xxx
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Beautiful :'(
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Oh Philip your pain is so bad, I wish I could say something to help you at this awful time in your life. I am glad you are able to share your thoughts and feelings with us and your lovely tribute again, brought tears to my eyes. Tiffy was, indeed, a very lucky cat to have you for his daddy. :hug: :hug: :hug:
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My pain is bad, but it is born of happiness. I would have rather had him in my life and go through this pain than never had met him.
I'm glad he was in my life. As I am all my kitties are. I have learned over the years its bad to keep you're feelings hidden. It stops you from being you're true self. It doesn't show weakness but strength. I'm proud to say I love Tiffy and all my cats.
I don't mean to make anyone cry. I'm sorry if I do. I guess as you all know, the love you give and receive from a relationship with a pet is a very special gift to be cherished.
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Please don't feel bad about making me cry I guess part of it is my thinking about my Dragan too. You are right about not hiding your feelings
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You havent got to say sorry for making any of us cry.....we cry because we feel and share your pain :hug:
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how are you today Philip? :hug:
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I'm sort of ok I think. Having weird dreams.
Cant really think about Tiffy right now.
I guess it will hit me hard when I pick his body up to go to the crematorium.
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Sending you a big :hug:
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You know Philip I have always felt a sense of peace when I have collected the ashes. It is upsetting but I have felt that my babies were home for good.
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Took a walk into town and bought the new book by Vicky Halls "The complete cat" to cheer myself up.
Was listening to my walkman and "flying without wings" came on. I'm so glad I had my sunglasses on because I had floods of tears streaming down my face.
It comes and goes doesn't it. One minute you are fine and then the next.....Bang.
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It comes and goes doesn't it. One minute you are fine and then the next.....Bang.
Almost like waves on a beach Philip, thats how i find grief....it comes and goes, sometimes the waves are little ones and then suddenly you get knocked over by a big one.
It's such early days too, it will get easier, the "good" days become more and more and finially you realise you havent had a "bad" day for ages
Sending you a :hug:
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It's good to get the tears out. Isn't it strange that when we are upset every song on the radio is a sad one. Tiffy is worth the tears so cry them all away. :hug:
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It's good to get the tears out. Isn't it strange that when we are upset every song on the radio is a sad one. Tiffy is worth the tears so cry them all away. :hug:
Tears are words the heart can't speak :hug:
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On the flying without wings theme. Decided to get on the piano and try and play something I could use at his cremation.
Came up with this.
If you want to download and listen click on the link
http://www.yousendit.com/transfer.php?action=batch_download&batch_id=bVlBYlJiTEQ3N0IzZUE9PQ
Please forgive any mistakes. I did it in one take.
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Philip that is beautiful :hug:
(no a lighter note - i gotta just ask - Your a nurse, sing in a choir, play piano, love cats .....is there a downside to you somewhere ?? :rofl:)
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Wow Philip that is incredibly lovely. Tiffy will be so proud of you and I am sure the music will drift up to Rainbow Bridge for all the fur babies to listen to
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Thank you :hug:
It was very emotional playing it.
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That was beautiful Philip :hug:
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Hows today been Philip ? :hug:
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Hi Michelle.
I really miss him.
Sometimes I look at his old places to see if he is there. Then I get that sinking feeling that he's gone.
My lovely little boy.
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Oh Hunny.....I know what You are going through.
I have done that myself, looking in old places....just hoping.
Take it a day at a time Philip -
Everyone is here for You :hug:
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Thinking about you :hug:
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me too :hug:
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thinking about you too Philip. :hug:
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I wanted to make a portrait of Tiffy so spent a few hours today putting this together.
He's so beautiful.
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Yes he is beautiful Philip :hug:
How have you been today ?
I love the way you do these pics xx
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Kept busy today.
Work was crazy.
My back hurts now.
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Go and soak in a hot bath xx
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Hi Philip, just catching up with this thread sort of guessed from what you said in previous posts that his time had come but it still doesn't make it any easier does it. I hope a week on that things are a little easier for you. Reading through this thread has made me quite emotional it is clear from the pictures he was a well loved cat and the support from people on here has been tremendous.
Andrea x
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People have been lovely.
Its helped a lot at a very difficult time.
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Philip, that is a beautiful way to remember Tiffy, although I know that's of no comfort right now. Take care of yourself :hug: