Hello Gillian,
I am so sorry to read about your dear, beautiful little Persian, Gypsy. You must be heartbroken and I just wish I could take the pain away for you. But remember your little girl is at peace now, bless her, and will be watching over you from a place so fabulous that you could not even begin to imagine it....
'Those that we love and have lost
are waiting for us
in a place without parting
where we'll never
have to say goodbye again'
Gypsy will always be with you and she wouldn't want you to be unhappy. Try to think of all the fun times and all the love and happiness that you shared together. I'm certain that she couldn't have wished for a better life.
And Gillian, please do not blame yourself. You did what you thought was right at the time and we can all be wise in hindsight. I know exactly what you are going through....I think we've all been there. 'If only I had done this or not done that'..it's natural and part of the grieving process. I had actually typed up a whole explanation about how my little Dubes died within a week of becoming ill....and how I wished to God that I hadn't taken her to the emergency vet on the night she died because I am certain that he caused her death. He was so young and inexperienced and gave her anaesthetic when she was hyperventilating!! She had only been seen for a further examination by the Senior partner earlier in the evening who didn't seem to think she was particularly ill... However, I decided to delete it in the end because I realised that it would not serve any purpose except to show how I still think the same thoughts.....and this was three years ago! But I know that if my little angel had died at home I would have thought 'Oh why didn't I rush her in to the emergency hospital' You see you can't win.
Gypsy had a doting mum who looked after her in the only way she knew how for as long as her little angel had on this earth. Nobody could have done any more.
R.I.P Gypsy darling....God bless.....you were loved very much.
Thinking of you Gillian :hug: :hug:
Roz