Purrs In Our Hearts - Cat Forum UK
In Loving Memory Cats => Rainbow Bridge - In Loving Memory => Topic started by: Nick (Peanut & Boo) on December 17, 2006, 22:15:10 PM
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I'm feeling rather sad tonight especially with so many of us remembering our lost ones. I'm having a little sob to myself . The tears are rolling down my face and I don't know why.
Its nearly two years since we lost Teddy. We had moved home for the cats safety,to another village to a house in a quiet private lane and still my lovely Teddy was run over by a callous driver who didn't bother to stop. Probably one of my neigbours It was on my Birthday and It happened seconds before I arrived home with some special treats for him . If I hadn't stopped for treats he might be alive today. I probably passed his killer in my car
You blame yourself for weeks and think if only I had kept him in, or been at home, done something differant but eventually you come to accept that he had the life he most enjoyed both in and out of the house. For nearly a year afterwards his Sister Boo would leap off the table and run to the door if she heard the cat flap . It broke my heart to think she could miss her big Brother so much for so long.
I miss my boy waiting in the drive for me to come home from work every night and I miss him thundering up the stairs and leaping from the doorway to land four square on my chest in the darkness of the small hours . I miss those huge soaking wet feet and his heaving heart from his run to greet me. I miss the silly vacant expression on his beautiful face and his huge purr at the feel of my hands stroking him in the darkness but most of all I just miss him
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Aww bless, don't be sad Teddy was a beautiful kitty and it sounds as though you absolutely loved the fur off him. I think its always harder at this time of year when things like this happen. Keep you chin up and remember the good times you had.
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Teddy was a lovely boy and is watching you from the Bridge and is wishing you a Happy Christmas.
I am soon to post about my cat for the 2nd Christmas and its hard this time of the year cos we all have memories that Christmas bring back.
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Happy christmas Teddy and all the other bridge kittys xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Happy Christmas Teddy - have fun at the bridge little one xxx
Happy Christmas to all the furbabies at the bridge xxx - sorely missed and never forgotten xxx
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How beautifully you write about your lovely Teddy, Nick. He was indeed a very handsome cat and it's obvious you loved him hugely.
I so understand what you say about blaming yourself. I'm going through that now, after the recent loss of by beloved Bat Cat. What if I hadn't let her out that day? But it was a beautiful day, she loved the freedom of being outdoors, and as soon as I opened the door that morning she shot outside, eager to explore and do all those other mysterious cat things that they do, unseen my us.
My little Bat had a fabulous life for a cat, as did your Teddy. They had more fun and affection in their short lives that many unfortunate animals ever get. I'm sure they wouldn't want us to be too sad that they're no longer with us, but to smile at the happy memories we'll keep forever.
Wishing you a happy and peaceful Christmas.
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Yes thats so true Telstar. I was sad for a while but then other daily things take over and it subsides until the next time. I think I get sad not just for Teddy but for every thing in our lives that has a sad or tragic effect. Its kind of like a collective sadness for everything and every body if that makes any sense. The trouble with being able to enjoy life intensley is the intensity of suffering and unhappiness that is at the other end of the pendulum. I sometimes open myself up to much emotionally I think.
It does help so much to remember the intensity of life that our little cats experience. They pack so much into their waking moments don't they. If we can do anything to make that short experience even just a little better then it was worth it, whatever it cost.
Your little Bat was a very lucky cat indeed to have such a loving and protective guardian.
Happy Christmas to you Telstar and love to all those little souls playing on the bridge
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Nick,
Ive had a few outbursts of tears over the last few days "for no apparent reson". But there never is no apparent reason, christmas without our furbabes is very hard and this is my 1st without Smudge and I miss her terribly and I feel guilty for not being happier for the sake of the other furbabes I have.....Dont be too hard on yourself........
Teddy is well looked after now at the bridge and no harm can come to him there :)
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Sorry to hear things are still so hard Nick, but please dont blame yourself. I do believe everything happens for a reason, even if we dont quite know the reason at the time. Teddy was a gorgeous cat, and is happy until he can meet you again.
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thank you everyone for your kind thoughts and good wishes. Most of the time I think of Teddy and remember the good tikmes and I look at his pictures occasionally and I'm fine with that but just every so often I am in an emotional mood ,perhaps reading of someone elses loss and then the memory effects me more deeply and I shed a few tears. Its kind of like a cleansing episode, I can't describe it but I guess it must be part of grieving .
I'm fine It will probably still effect me from time to time but that's ok.