Suzie hasnt really made any improvement since the steroid jab etc at the vets on Friday, in fact I think she seems worse. She's behaving very oddly and howling, suddenly letting out a blood curdling howl intermittently through the night and day, when I go to her, she seems disorientated. She hasnt eaten for herself since Wed night, so I started syringe feeding Liquivite which she seemed to accept readily, I thought that was encouraging. But, this morning she wouldnt accept it, she obviously doesnt want it. She hadnt drunk much either, although I've still been giving her the 80 ml of subQ fluids every day - this morning she did drink quite a lot, was at the water bowl for a good 5 mins - again I thought that was a good sign, but theres no interest in food, and she seems so weak.
I think I know in my heart that this is the end, she had 4 good weeks, and I mean really good weeks, after being on the drip at the vets and then having the fluids at home, when she was acting pretty much normally, eating well, and doing her usual trick of leaping onto my back when I'm bending over cleaning the litter trays or something, taking me completely unawares!
If the steroids etc she had at the vets havent made any difference this time, I can't see that theres anything else to try - she could have IV fluids on a drip at the vets again, but if it only buys her a bit more time, probably just weeks - is it right to do? I know the answer I suppose really - I mean, only to have her go downhill again like this - I couldnt bear it. I can hardly see through the tears to type this, and actually typing the words is bringing it all home, that I've actually got to let her go.
