Topic: I let my baby boy go today - RIP Max 31.7.09 (Read 8743 times)

**TINA** · « **Reply #68 on:** August 05, 2009, 11:25:39 AM »

thinking of you xx

clarenmax · « **Reply #67 on:** August 05, 2009, 11:20:42 AM »

I've also got a little trinket box with the rest of his fur I kept, some whiskers, and a claw sheath, when I knew I was losing him, I started collecting little keepsakes, they are all in my bedside cabinet at the moment as he loved to sit on there, even though he knew he wasn't allowed to

I have no idea when his ashes will be returned to me, I've asked for them in a casket as I don't want to scatter them.

I've seen a lovely black cat casket on the internet which I might well buy once I have them back

Kirst · « **Reply #66 on:** August 05, 2009, 09:57:30 AM »

That lovely.

LeighK · « **Reply #65 on:** August 05, 2009, 08:28:26 AM »

What a lovely thing to do Clare, that's beautiful.

Leigh

JackSpratt · « **Reply #64 on:** August 04, 2009, 22:02:51 PM »

That's lovely, Clare.

Debsymiller (Rufus' mum) · « **Reply #63 on:** August 04, 2009, 22:01:44 PM »

Quote from: clarenmax on August 04, 2009, 21:02:35 PM

I bought a beautiful silver heart locket today, its really pretty, and now has a piece of Max's fur inside, so he will be forever close to my heart

What a lovely tribute to your special boy xxx

Gill (sneakiefeline) · « **Reply #62 on:** August 04, 2009, 21:29:48 PM »

So pleased

clarenmax · « **Reply #61 on:** August 04, 2009, 21:02:35 PM »

I bought a beautiful silver heart locket today, its really pretty, and now has a piece of Max's fur inside, so he will be forever close to my heart

Janeyk · « **Reply #60 on:** August 02, 2009, 22:28:09 PM »

glad J is now home with you Clare

swampmaxmum · « **Reply #59 on:** August 02, 2009, 22:11:18 PM »

Clare, I've just seen this. I am so sorry, words are just inadequate. I know what a battle it's been for Max and for you, his mum, and my heart goes out to you.

RIP little Max

MrsR · « **Reply #58 on:** August 01, 2009, 22:13:03 PM »

clarenmax · « **Reply #57 on:** August 01, 2009, 20:45:13 PM »

Thank you all so much for your lovely messages, they are very much appreciated, and the warmth and love from you guys has made me proud to be a part of our wonderful Purrs community

J has just got back, so not on my own now, which is nice.

Today, I'm not sure how I feel. I certainly feel much calmer, I think yesterday was just so traumatic that I couldn't get my head around anything. I went out for a run earlier which made me feel a bit better, did some supermarket shopping, then put my feet up and watched rubbish tv all afternoon.

I've not cried as much today, its the little things which are getting me this afternoon..... I went upstairs to put some clothes away and noticed the wardrobe which my dear boy had attempted to shred over the years, and it just made me burst into tears again.

I do feel calmer though, as I know that he's not in pain, and that he would have wanted me to help him

I'm also very thankful that his decline was quite rapid, if you know what I mean? Up until 2 days ago he was still happy and purry, just losing lots of weight very quickly. We now know that this was the cancer, and I don't know whey that wasn't picked up earlier, but I'll never know that.

Anyhoo, thank you all again, I love you all xxx

Ann Clarke (Tabby cat) · « **Reply #56 on:** August 01, 2009, 20:33:36 PM »

I am so sorry to hear this Clare, Max was truly a special boy who was very lucky to have you and J to look after him. I know how much you loved him and you will miss him so much. He will be safe now at the bridge with all our babes.

RIP Max play hard at the bridge darling

Desley (booktigger) · « **Reply #55 on:** August 01, 2009, 20:10:52 PM »

I was so shocked to read this, I am sorry things happened so quickly, but at least he went with dignity. You gave him such a wonderful life, RIP little one

karenjet · « **Reply #54 on:** August 01, 2009, 19:06:27 PM »

I'm so gutted to read this, Clare

I know how much it hurts. Take care of yourself, I'll be thinking of you.

R.I.P Little Max

woodlandcats · « **Reply #53 on:** August 01, 2009, 17:07:05 PM »

The pain is unbearable.
Only people that love cats understand this.

cats_whiskas · « **Reply #52 on:** August 01, 2009, 17:05:42 PM »

Thinking about you and Max still today. I hope he and Mr Darcy are hanging out, looking down on us, wondering why we are so upset, as they will never leave us. I ache for my baby and I know you must feel the same.

Baggy · « **Reply #51 on:** August 01, 2009, 15:23:20 PM »

So sorry Clare

Max had a wonderful life with you.

blackcat · « **Reply #50 on:** August 01, 2009, 09:40:16 AM »

Clare

so sorry to hear this news - know that you will be in my thoughts ...

Janeyk · « **Reply #49 on:** August 01, 2009, 09:32:46 AM »

awww Clare, you go through it and it hurts but you have all us to talk to and lovely memories of how happy your Max was with you

Daisymac · « **Reply #48 on:** August 01, 2009, 09:27:07 AM »

Aww Clare honey, it will hurt still, just think of Max on Rainbow Bridge, he is looking after Molly as she is only a baby and I am sure he is having a lovely time.

Try and have a nice day, be good to yourself and do things just for you

clarenmax · « **Reply #47 on:** August 01, 2009, 08:46:55 AM »

Thank you all for your lovely messages and PMs, I'll try to reply to them but if I don't, it doesn't mean they are not wholly appreciated.

I slept quite well last night, think I was exhausted yesterday, and for just a few minutes when I woke up everything seemed normal. Then it hit me again, and I'm once again sitting here crying my eyes out

Even just now going into the kitchen, normally Max's brekkie was the first thing I'd do, but just walking into the room and his food bowls not being there, its breaking my heart all over again today

bunglycat · « **Reply #46 on:** August 01, 2009, 01:02:58 AM »

I am sorry about Max, Clare -he was a very special boy and i know how much you are missing him.
You loved him and let him go with dignity - he will be fit and healthy now playing at the bridge with all the other fur babies .
Sending lots of

Max

Philip · « **Reply #45 on:** August 01, 2009, 00:34:38 AM »

I'm really sorry Clare.

Take care

Rest in peace little man.

Sylvia · « **Reply #44 on:** July 31, 2009, 23:35:46 PM »

Clare, my heart is breaking for you.

Max was a very gorgeous and special boy, and I know how much you love him and must miss him so much. You and he were such an inspiraion to us.

I'm sure that he knew you were with him, and would have taken comfort from that.

I am so sorry

Our babies at the bridge are looking out for you Max, and would love you to come and play. When you have time, send your Mummy and Daddy that rainbow.

Max

Pinkbear (Julie) · « **Reply #43 on:** July 31, 2009, 22:42:09 PM »

Oh Clare, I'm so sorry for your loss.

Rest well Max

MrsR · « **Reply #42 on:** July 31, 2009, 20:40:08 PM »

Oh sweetie

I am so sorry

RIP Max play hard on the bridge with Vesti and Sofa, I know they'll look after you x

bonnielass · « **Reply #41 on:** July 31, 2009, 20:02:33 PM »

Im so sorry Claire that you lost your babe today and you had to go through it on your own :(you must be heartbroken but take heart in the fact that you let him go with his dignity and lots of love and im sure hes looking down from the bridge and will send you that rainbow soon

RIP MAX

, safe from harm on the bridge and watching over Mum

Bryony84 · « **Reply #40 on:** July 31, 2009, 19:28:44 PM »

Clare hunny, I said this earlier on Facebook but I truly believe it so I'll say it again. You gave Max a chance when so many would not have done and not you have done the kindest thing possible. Remember the good times you had with him and he will watch over you from the bridge. x

AliCat · « **Reply #39 on:** July 31, 2009, 18:19:39 PM »

*hugs* RIP little man.

woodlandcats · « **Reply #38 on:** July 31, 2009, 17:48:59 PM »

OMG, not you too!! I can't believe this, what a dreadful month is this!
what can I say, you're not alone in this pain, but does that help, I wonder.

maryas · « **Reply #37 on:** July 31, 2009, 17:28:47 PM »

Take care Clare.

I've PMd you.

Hope Max has found my Smudge they will be great friends.

Mary xx

tab · « **Reply #36 on:** July 31, 2009, 16:43:57 PM »

Im so sorry
Rip Max play well at the bridge baby

love
Tab

Kittybabe (Ruth) · « **Reply #35 on:** July 31, 2009, 16:38:47 PM »

Honey, I'm so sorry

You gave Max the most wonderful thing in life, he was loved and you respected him to let him leave with dignity. Bless you, sweetie.

RIP sweet Max. Lots of panther smiles where you are now.

LadyJane · « **Reply #34 on:** July 31, 2009, 16:34:43 PM »

Good night Max

Big

for you Claire xx

Yvonne · « **Reply #33 on:** July 31, 2009, 16:24:29 PM »

So very sorry to hear this

MAX

nicter · « **Reply #32 on:** July 31, 2009, 16:24:08 PM »

Im so sorry Claire.
Play hard at trhe bridge little one

xx

moira · « **Reply #31 on:** July 31, 2009, 16:23:31 PM »

RIP little man. My thoughts are with you, Claire.

Tiggy's Mum · « **Reply #30 on:** July 31, 2009, 16:16:48 PM »

So, so sorry to hear this Clare

Am in tears here for you

RIP Max, safe and sound at the Bridge by now waiting for your Mum & Dad until they are ready to collect you xx

The Greatest Gift

I always knew this time would come,
From the very instant our eyes first met.
How I loved you then! How I love you now!
I made a promise then, and I will keep that promise now...
You will not suffer from a pain that will not heal;
You will not know the loss of a life remembered, now gone.

It is for me alone to make this decision,
The price for the bright joy and pure laughter
You brought me during the time we shared.
I am the only one who can decide when it is time.
When my hope dies, and my fear rides high,
Just when I need you most, I must let you go.

It is for you alone to tell me when you are ready
For without your guidance, I will not know
When to lay my grief, my guilt, my anger
My sorrow and my selfish heart aside
And give you this last gift, this greatest gift.
Your eyes will speak to mine, and I will know.

The pain of this moment is excruciating.
Tears stream down my face in a river of sorrow.
And my heart drowns in a pool of grief.
For you have spoken and I have listened,
And unlike other decisions I have made
This one brings no relief...no comfort...no peace.

For if there´s one thing you´ve taught me,
If there´s only one thing I´ve learned...
Unconditional love has a condition after all,
I must be willing to let you go, when you speak to me
I must be willing to help you go, if you cannot go alone.
And I must accept my pain so you can be free of yours.

Go easily now, go quickly now,
Do not linger here, it is time for you to leave.
Go find your strength, go find your youth.
Go find the ones who've gone before you.
You are free to leave me now, free to let your spirit soar
Rest easy now, your pain will soon be gone.

I pray I will find comfort in my memories...
In the dark and lonely days ahead.
I cannot say I will not miss you, I cannot say I will not cry.
For only my tears can heal my broken heart.
But, I promise you this; as long as I live,
You will live, alive in my mind, forever in my heart.

So I give you this last gift, all I have left to give,
And this will be my greatest gift...sending you away.
It is the measure of my unconditional love...
For only the greatest love can say,
"Good-bye, go find the bridge, we'll meet again,
Loving you has been the greatest gift of all."

Forever and Always... Until Rainbow bridge....

Liz · « **Reply #29 on:** July 31, 2009, 15:09:24 PM »

Claire our thoughts are with you and J at this sad time

He had the most wonderful parents in you both, he was a wonderful advert for all the FIV cats and you made being his guardian look so easy, you gave him the hardest thing we do he went with his dignity intact and took your love with him

Only ever borrowed never owned but always a pawprint in your heart

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